Apple of My Eye

Apple of My Eye
secrets kept
" And of mankind are some who take (for worship) others beside Allah as rivals (to Allah). They love them as they love Allah. But those who believe, love Allah more (than anything else). If only, those who do wrong could see, when they will see the torment, that all power belongs to Allah and that Allah is Severe in punishment "

Holy Quran, Al Baqarah:2

Saturday, July 20, 2013

2 Things

A New Day Art Print
Note to self: before reading any of these..view as someone from the future,,not past,not present..

Ramadhan, underneath the always clear sky, somehow Rantau Town quite often witness the Almighty's bless of rain, a simple peace offered to dry mouth..fasting~

" Ada dua pekara, sangat berbeza tetapi asalnya berduanya sama, punca dari hati yang merasai, punca dari akal yang berbuat. Yang mana satu lebih kuasanya antara yang lain, aku tak tahu, hanya Allah. Sejauh mana keduanya bisa merosakkan hati dan akal aku kerna terlampau sangat kesan terhadap tingkah laku diri aku muslimah biasa, hanya Dia yang mengadili..dalam hati aku, takkan berhenti satu frasa,. Aku fikir dan terus fikir, dalam mimpi dalam sedar, terus tanya satu frasa lebih dari menghantui, tetapi menjadi taboo buat diriku..mengapakah demikian..hanya satu jawapan termampau akal ku menjawab,.

(itulah keindahan frasanya) "

how old school Art Print
So old, seeing it still living the cliche out of it~

" People are crazy and times are strange
I'm locked in tight, I'm out of range
I used to care, but things have changed "

- Saniboey

~to be continued...

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Noted Prior I

In motivating, or should I say, giving the 'brain freeze' to the brain as a wake up call,
is un-enough with just words, hearing or reading them,..
Unlike those inspirational people making inspirational talks and videos
(if we care to open a freaking YouTube every single day)
what makes you things you're the only in this world?

if a picture speaks 1000 words, what would a collage spoke of?

the answer lies when there is none of amazing reminders, remind you of what real situation like outside there, I bet if you're not to busying yourself with your own world, your own problem,
you'll understand well enough about REALLY, TRULY living this life, watching others from around your country, analysis their problem
It the same freaking story but it is just different characters,.
but the DIRECTOR is still you!
It's like ala ala SuckerPunch movie, where I seriously thought the hero was Babydoll, but it was not her, but it was SweetPea..

the point is~

I may not see myself clearly with all these 'muddy thoughts'
seeing the bright side blah blah just, thought about what about someone like me?
I am molded into an individual character of self-loathing...
I could not see the bright side all only if it is on fire (and that's bad thing)
All this crap of caring endless worthless thing puts me into coma of tranquility..
but easily,..all could end and begin with an adaption,.
some training on my part..

p/s : nevertheless, I could't wait for Ramadhan to have it's precise effects on me...cant wait~

Saturday, July 13, 2013

China Town

China Town Art Print
..or second text would be Emptiness
 I was thinking to put the title of "Emptiness" to the post & continue with definition of empty, and I realize, it just could not any emptier than that...
so I got China Town inspiration, expressing that sometime, a busy day will be grey sometimes..,
let alone that one dying 'white elephant'
I could not wrap my head around all these situation, I don't know how those people spending their summer with the routine all over again and again and again...
"What if our whole life is a dream,when we die, we wake up?" - Conspiratorial Keanu
How could this be happening to me?I must be one of the most lonely girl next door, living this thing with just pure of nothingness...
Ramadhan and some bits of love are the only things that keep me going in the next morning..
not even for the home I got..


Interference from external forces, the sun, cats & sound of rain, those indigo scenes keep my thought of living another day.. and for some reason, while I'm writing these, I creased my forehead hard, it dented~
The Irony is that, those repeating activities (waking up, fasting, shower, reading, staring) makes up a whole different memories, I'll get sick of the memories will end up doing it involuntarily!
and more of the Irony, 'even the good song, you hear it over and over again, you'll feel your ears numbing' 

"Carpe Diem" - seize the day

p/s : "no matter how things turn out, make the best of them" quote simply not freaking enough!!

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Skin Deep Bore

Each one of us must have that one music,any type of song
giving what we thought a complete guide..
on how to LIVE THIS LIFE~
Seriously, we all heard about :-
when we're sad, we understand the lyrics, when we're happy, we'll enjoy the tune..
Onion graphics
Onion graphics
 Speak Up by POP ETC &  Yamaha by Delta Spirit respectively

Surely, it must be some kind of myth, if we're deaf ( I rather I were~)
The point is, it makes you static, and got you thinking why everything is damn boring
I think a lot, a lot more than actually doing it..
especially, those freak time when in prayer, you're not khusyuk cuz why?
you think a lot,.besides the prayer itself..
Our body seems to provide more energy to the brain when we're motionless...
I would sleep like an hour after putting the head on the bed..
It's seriously annoying, noticing that mostly we thought about things not worth thinking of~
We care about people not worth care of,..
Doing deeds not worth doing..
making bad decisions..and what worse than that?
dying with sins not yet forgiven by Him...
(worst case scenario imaginable)

p/s: no other solution than fixing yourself with 'yourself' it?

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