Apple of My Eye

Apple of My Eye
secrets kept
" And of mankind are some who take (for worship) others beside Allah as rivals (to Allah). They love them as they love Allah. But those who believe, love Allah more (than anything else). If only, those who do wrong could see, when they will see the torment, that all power belongs to Allah and that Allah is Severe in punishment "

Holy Quran, Al Baqarah:2

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Classic Mistakes

1st Ramadhan 1433 ~ date that I felt major sadness and I felt homey..(I miss it so much)...the pitiful of realization of what I've had become throughout life,..I see more clearly now that 'the silence of the lamb' is water-thoughts flow more peacefully...calmly,I know now...really know well..
-- people E=mc2 (complicated) --
the sadness trap the heart with its firm I wonder why this is my beginning..that I know this is the best journey of all time...there's only some sad THINGS happen but the FEELING that comes after, came more powerful...not bad...not a bad sign at all..
people feel sad..all the is the most common essence that I hope I'm not the one of the commoners,..felt the normal feeling over n' over again...not cool..(c'mon!I'm a vintage freak!)...
about being able to see things clearly..what I mean by it is that,I knew the ways to avoid what's other people are doing wrong...those kind of plans help me get through existence more accordingly,..but the best of all,living personage more harmoniously...

_______      Masochist Vendetta borders`    _______
what do you want n' wadya need?..see?that's a question...every homo sapien heard that one before,..but how many cared?
what do humans lived for? mind's not something I find it worth fighting for,...maybe just because of my jealousy and ego conquer the mind while I'm writing this..but most of all, still-rational part thought,..majority creatures are still blind,..with the brightness of earth's fake light...however..where do I not one of em'?maybe,..maybe not...
so in Ramadhan...I can do stuffs, other words,..lots of stuffs could be done n'
p/s; sudah cukup sudah....cukup sampai d'sini saja...
another p/s; just found out that my Islamic birth date is the 1st of Rabbiulakhir 1415...on WEDNESDAY-!

Friday, July 20, 2012


Friends was such an easy thing to play...and I'll always here to hide all I believe,.in yesterday ...
was the 1ST KULIAH 10 in the 57th best outing I've ever had in my entire life of friendship~
-how bout' dat huh?-
ya noe how I've lived almost my entire childhood in a deserted town..[still,Rantau is awesome in other ways]..
how I studied in a school full of my own genus?...[Gurls still rule this world~]'s kinda first experience for my go Mines,this mall near to UPM,..with my other kuliah mates~..
=how the family bonds really that fucking strong!=
just imagine thart we walked together to mines...went home together back to college..
dear kuliah mates..if you're reading just can't imagine..the feeling of never went for an outing with that many friends..GUYS n gurls..
analysis: outing with guys was..*speechless...they're kinda some need to be me to understand this kind of situation..hmm??
p/s: it was fucking RELIEVING FUN!!

Monday, July 16, 2012

Ager Cultura

Test II was...well..was...hurmm....i dunnoe...

what? - AsPer batch 8 2012/13 Test II -normal tract-
when? - July 16th till July 30th 2012 in time? - 8 till 9:30 pm ('awesome')
what again? - agriculture
ranking - ****

After the clock strike exactly 9 o'clock sharp...i looked at zue,..and giggles..
me : weyh!*motioning towards prof zack..lets sent it together!
zue : lip sync 'i got no answers!'
me : just let it be lah weyh!!
~  silents creeps back  ~
then..*LOL..we sang this freaky song out loud..because of the TENSION was so unbearable maybe~hehe
'Gotyre-Somebody That I Used To Know'
we just sing..n sing...n sing...until we(especially me) lose my voice chord somewhere on the road,, was memorable,n i hope we'll continue doing stopping...cuz at that particular moment..I knew our friendship had no that moment..TuT!


CLIMAX was...since the bus was no where to be seen after we waited like..for eternity..
I saw bunch of these parading.,planning to WALK back to college...for the sake of experience..zue literally drag me,following them...
~ through the dark...
~ with these teenager's voice talking..
~ walking with fear...
~ beside 'haunted' building of the first abandoned college...
it was...
AWESOME!!... mostly talking...with sweet gurl Aqilah~talk bout HE WHO MUST NOT BE NAMED..that's the most of it..enjoying sisterhood...

p/s:-'fish' the english before..damn it!:p

Saturday, July 14, 2012

What Ifs

synopsis; Imagination took me to some place,..where I could no longer deal with boredom and insanity of life...
but still,..the place taught me few things of true meaning of life...
I ain't got no black beauty,.. a journal where I could place all my memories shared with these few lucky homo one time,..I mean this time,..the memories inside me burst throughout the imaginary space..colourful,much colourful than rainbow itself...filled through my tears...that very first day I cried,..when I left home..~
(this is just the beginning...I'm warning ya this is quite a long post...appreciate your time..go outside n' play my sweethearts..)

Since in college...
I'm too suck...suck-in for this life, i dont know what's happening to human fake life, what they're living for...popularity? I maybe no longer care, cuz in college, i learn some true meaning of life..n in the same time, i got away from fantasy that human thought they live what now? i still part of them?--these questions are too abstract,..only thioughts of true vendetta would understand..~my apology

This is what actually happen...dear Malaysian that my Lord, Allah s.w.t. cared for,..

- Putra Univ Malaysian -

it'a a surprise..surprise to surpass all those intelligent-rians outside there to took their place here in UPM..the grateful overwhelmed that first moment I knew my in this magnificent institute..
general knowledge people..we all knew it's friggin' important knowledges are..especially at this kind of century... you guys don't know how i hard me,..especially my beloved family to seek chance like's linked to a case where i'm not fit to get a bumiputera specialities, dare them!(the governmet..*huuu)
thus..the hardships were undeniable..but lets not write about those silly silly things shall we..?
but here are the deeds that i'm too fuckin' lazy to elaborate...

Venue : Putra University Malaysia
Course : Foundation in Agricultural Science
 Date - 7th May 2012 till 2013 'graduate'
Orientation : wanted to become MTM (Student Senate Comm.)..soon~
Subjects : mostlly science but there's extra one sub that gempak giler
That Extra One : short,what i thought about plants before this...about being a changed..from (-) to (+)
Seniors : Irrelevant
Lecturer : Not Bad
Lecture mate : Awesome =family bond working=
Room : Satisfied..homey
Room mate : Fantastic [asyiqa-nasyid,nadiah-P.Y.T.,tijad-blurry eyes,syafiq-saba ba,famy-3rd dimensional]
Food : TxT...mammmaaa!!nak tempoyak!!
Hygiene : rank-WTF!
Books : I could have 7 dozens of gempak starz comics by now..the price was excruciating
Fish Flats : true rendezvous indeed
what else~?!

(we call ourselves kuliah mates...10/10..score till the end...i miss dat)

p/s;- like i said..this is just the beginning...waiting starts now~

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