Noted Prior I

In motivating, or should I say, giving the 'brain freeze' to the brain as a wake up call,

is un-enough with just words, hearing or reading them,..

Unlike those inspirational people making inspirational talks and videos

(if we care to open a freaking YouTube every single day)

what makes you things you're the only in this world?

if a picture speaks 1000 words, what would a collage spoke of?

the answer lies when there is none of amazing reminders, remind you of what real situation like outside there, I bet if you're not to busying yourself with your own world, your own problem,

you'll understand well enough about REALLY, TRULY living this life, watching others from around your country, analysis their problem

It the same freaking story but it is just different characters,.

but the DIRECTOR is still you!

It's like ala ala SuckerPunch movie, where I seriously thought the hero was Babydoll, but it was not her, but it was SweetPea..

the point is~

I may not see myself clearly with all these 'muddy thoughts'

seeing the bright side blah blah just, thought about what about someone like me?

I am molded into an individual character of self-loathing...

I could not see the bright side all only if it is on fire (and that's bad thing)

All this crap of caring endless worthless thing puts me into coma of tranquility..

but easily,..all could end and begin with an adaption,.

some training on my part..

p/s : nevertheless, I could't wait for Ramadhan to have it's precise effects on me...cant wait~

Payback Time

Odd timing to think that all this luxurious time I have spend them worthlessly

(since I'm not in college,yet plus me not working at all)

There's isn't much things I've done for the past 2 months,..

Still the opportunities there, in another two months I'll be back to college (degree)..

In the mean time, those future two months I have,.

I wouldn't want it to filled with my schedule of the past months~

The Hierarchy:-

3rd May (is it?don't remember) : I starts longest of my holiday

till today 26th June : how long have I been wasting?yeah 1 month++

THE WASTE!~

But we all got a month that save us from this blackest duty=wasting time..

RAMADHAN~

(it's not a choice to obey or to not obey below steps, it's responsibilities..how far we actually bury that deep in our,..piece of meat in the body?)

credits to Liyana Alya, a friend an akhwat would always proud of~

Ager Cultura

Test II was...well..was...hurmm....i dunnoe...

ATTENTION TO ALL MY BUDDIES OF UPM~WASSUP??Y(^-^)Y

what? - AsPer batch 8 2012/13 Test II -normal tract-

when? - July 16th till July 30th 2012

when...as in time? - 8 till 9:30 pm ('awesome')

what again? - agriculture

ranking - ****

After the clock strike exactly 9 o'clock sharp...i looked at zue,..and giggles..

me : weyh!*motioning towards prof zack..lets sent it together!

zue : lip sync 'i got no answers!'

me : just let it be lah weyh!!

~  silents creeps back  ~

then..*LOL..we sang this freaky song out loud..because of the TENSION was so unbearable maybe~hehe

'Gotyre-Somebody That I Used To Know'

we just sing..n sing...n sing...until we(especially me) lose my voice chord somewhere on the road,,...it was memorable,n i hope we'll continue doing it...no stopping...cuz at that particular moment..I knew our friendship had no end...at that moment..TuT!


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CLIMAX was...since the bus was no where to be seen after we waited like..for eternity..

I saw bunch of these guys...like parading.,planning to WALK back to college...for the sake of experience..zue literally drag me,following them...

~ through the dark...

~ with these teenager's voice talking..

~ walking with fear...

~ beside 'haunted' building of the first abandoned college...

it was...it was...

AWESOME!!...

then..it mostly talking...with sweet gurl Aqilah~talk bout HE WHO MUST NOT BE NAMED..that's the most of it..enjoying sisterhood...

p/s:-'fish' the english before..damn it!:p

What Ifs

synopsis; Imagination took me to some place,..where I could no longer deal with boredom and insanity of life...

but still,..the place taught me few things of true meaning of life...

I ain't got no black beauty,.. a journal where I could place all my memories shared with these few lucky homo sapiens...at one time,..I mean this time,..the memories inside me burst throughout the imaginary space..colourful,much colourful than rainbow itself...filled through my tears...that very first day I cried,..when I left home..~

(this is just the beginning...I'm warning ya this is quite a long post...appreciate your time..go outside n' play my sweethearts..)

Since in college...

I'm too suck...suck-in for this life, i dont know what's happening to human fake life, what they're living for...popularity? I maybe no longer care, cuz in college, i learn some true meaning of life..n in the same time, i got away from fantasy that human thought they live in...so what now?..am i still part of them?--these questions are too abstract,..only thioughts of true vendetta would understand..~my apology

This is what actually happen...dear Malaysian that my Lord, Allah s.w.t. cared for,..

- Putra Univ Malaysian -

it'a a surprise..surprise to surpass all those intelligent-rians outside there to took their place here in UPM..the grateful overwhelmed that first moment I knew my place..here in this magnificent institute..

general knowledge people..we all knew it's friggin' important knowledges are..especially at this kind of century... you guys don't know how i hard me,..especially my beloved family to seek chance like this..it's linked to a case where i'm not fit to get a bumiputera specialities,..how dare them!(the governmet..*huuu)

thus..the hardships were undeniable..but lets not write about those silly silly things shall we..?

but here are the deeds that i'm too fuckin' lazy to elaborate...

Venue : Putra University Malaysia

Course : Foundation in Agricultural Science

 Date - 7th May 2012 till 2013 'graduate'

Orientation : wanted to become MTM (Student Senate Comm.)..soon~

Subjects : mostlly science but there's extra one sub that gempak giler

That Extra One : Agriculture...in short,what i thought about plants before this...about being a farmers..it changed..from (-) to (+)

Seniors : Irrelevant

Lecturer : Not Bad

Lecture mate : Awesome =family bond working=

Room : Satisfied..homey

Room mate : Fantastic [asyiqa-nasyid,nadiah-P.Y.T.,tijad-blurry eyes,syafiq-saba ba,famy-3rd dimensional]

Food : TxT...mammmaaa!!nak tempoyak!!

Hygiene : rank-WTF!

Books : I could have 7 dozens of gempak starz comics by now..the price was excruciating

Fish Flats : true rendezvous indeed

Auxiliary : isntlifeawesome.blogspot.com

what else~?oh..pictures..haha!

(we call ourselves kuliah mates...10/10..score till the end...i miss dat)

p/s;- like i said..this is just the beginning...waiting starts now~

Twinkle Star

"Regret on what you did is more EXTRAVAGANT than regret on what you didn't"- me

Because we live just once...we're young just once,and my curious part always tell me(whisper in my head I guess)...

"Ain,think once,twice,thrice,fourice,five-rice before you do ONE thing" but I rarely listen because you know...the more I made mistakes,the more right I'm going to do in the future...of course,I need to see the suitability of that method for some the dilemma I'm facing...not all(like choosing a college to study,careful buddy!)

You can call that LIFE,including mine..is a mixed-up one...

different people...variety of food...numerous languages...oceans of emotions

I loved funky...different...stuffs..that's about me  

above are some bits of my photo essay(application to participate BRATs)..butt(hehe) before that..what the heck is BRATS?...some pain-in-the-ass kids is it?

*YEAH RIGHT GUYS*

it stands for 

Bright Roving Annoying TeenS

BRATs is one of the most special things The Star Publication (my future rival - since I'm future NSTP journalist)..*ahem,so this special things was held specially for my kind-TEENAGERs..as in we had our own platform in society...BRATs is a workshop Star did to train kids like me in being fantacular journalist a.k.a. 
an awesome person!
Yeah..it goes on with the photography technique..how to capture good photo and video,not to forget..D most important thing is standing in front of a camera..- aside social skills..Can ya imagine this..we actually had our own assignments (like grown-up had*hehe) for tourism place we're visited..
ok...first thing first..when I first walk inside this room full of youngster-like me *duh-..me was fucking nervous..I never realise I'm chosen like these guys but in the end,the low self-esteem gradually decrease (science much?) when I hang out with these guys..doing ice-breaking...having brunch,dinner and,..
it was FUN maximum power!-for that angle,that I mix up with my own kind
second thing second..those trips we had to some tourism place in Kuala Selangor 
(forgot to mention I was in BRATs K. Selangor 2012..juz f.y.i.)..and we walk and travel and explore 
and dig up some stuff for our articles and videos..
ya know how people talk about new things were found,learn new stuff about some place..but that was my 27% of the story..most of my story involved the AWKWARDNESS I felt through the journey..

OH~SHOOT!..bang bang!!!  

Driving Lesson

In Malaysia,car accident is the 2nd most likely thing to happen every single day...as in,the day would not be complete without some news from media about car accident..then when I heard the particular news,I would sighed,"Thank god,the world's still normal!",(how about that?)

Let me introduce to ya guys...Sir Rosly - me instructor for driving school

the 'moustache' would very much remind me of him-haha

1st of all is the ADRENALINE of working with the killing machine(car-duh!)...the inertia you felt when handled the clutch.gears and the steers!it follow our rule,,we set the game for this killing machine...

~ HOW COOL IS THAT! ~

2ndly would be the SPEED...of every inch involving car..for ex like the speed of you absorb the knowledges for the side-parking,climbing up hill(classic!) and this thing you need to do when ya encounter dead-end...got it?never mind..

3rd thing I remember the most is the TENSION ya felt...'yells' and 'critics' from ma instructor reaaallllyy...... challenge myself to get to the next level...I'm a girl,me gonna cry in no time for any 'insults' I get from him...but trust me,I no time too..it helps me to improve fucking a lot!

Last but so not totally the least...the ultimate TEST!!yeah..it was exactly the same as our Sir Rosly taught me all the time!it turns out every single thing came out from his mouth about driving a car came out useful for my test...and thank him for that...
I PASSED ~
ok...before end..forgot to mention about the convenience of the car meant for me.. of course I'm the new driver of the family..I'm just glad not being the most active parasite at home...

p/s : want me to scan my freaking license?nah...