No Card

A very predictable thing happened today..which would probably made to the Malaysian Guiness Book of Record...imagine that!

I actually cooked...a freaking dish called 'Gulai Pisang'

result : It turns out just as I imagined..

only the 'fire' was not in the lungs...it's in the stomach

I imagine...if the 'gulai' was edible..my mom would be very proud of me...but now..she's just...proud..only~
well..my intention of doing this cause my mom's B day..this mind is blank..
do not know what else to do for her...
and I just thought,,she cooked a lot for me,so..why not I too,cook at least one dish..just make her happy?
it was disastrous..*sigh
but the climax of today stories was...my mother had a sudden fever..
this knocked the breath out of me...how come?she was everything a mother could be...she don't fucking deserve any of this..-end of sad moment-
Year 2012...my mom had simple birthday celebration..just cakes(which mostly ate by me)..and one day MC from the doctor..took a chill pill on friday...
when I went outing with CEVD two days before...I bought a card just in case I couldn't come with something to cheer my mom up...but..just that..she had fever,took care of her..no words to write in that card,for a day my mom was born..day of heaven and miracle for me..~especially me...
my ink pen gone...I only thought of her pain..

p/s : so..no card this year

Mother Indeed

my mother ~ is a WONDERWOMAN...

 

just an illustration...not really my mom..{i noe u noe dat :p]

Being a good daughter was never my accomplished task I had on my to-do list...it's simple but complicated...
But seriously fella...what is so hard of being a loving children..PARENT had done so many we could never imagine...until,..of course when we become one ourself...[then you know lah weyh!how was it]
what mother had done today had really touched my heart...
but that's the point...she had done so many wonderful things for me - I lost count...-
today was one of it... 
me was fasting today...makruh fasting to be exact [cause I sleep A LOT]...I didn't do any home chores to day..at all..like ;-
#opening windows upstairs...[to allow 'rezqi' inside the house as she said]
#feed the cats..poor the thing meow meowing
#wash the dishes - f.y.i. my mom really hates that when there dirty dishes piled in the sink

so yeah..~I'm a terrible fast-er and daughter..
when Maghreb's near...I'd ready with dates in front of me...my mom called ----
mom : assalamulaykum..noain
me : yes..waalaykumsalam ma...
mom : what do you want for break-fast?
me : I don't know..just buy anything..not rice..no KFC or McD watsoever
mom : I don't what do you want to eat..really...I'm on my way to Jusco right now...just tell  me what do you want...
( 2 minutes of debating back and forth on what to eat...)
me : okay mom!just buy that..urmm....mac and cheese..*sigh
mom : there..not so hard right?ok then..bye

Not so hard?..I KNOW Secret Recipe is one the most expensive restaurant...I was considering my fast was 'makruh'(cause of the sleep thing)..and that I did not do any house chores..make me feel like...like a umm...oh yeah!...
A SCHMUCK ~ let me highlight that..
so..story ending..I got my mac and cheese..eat it with guilt feeling holing in my chest...and ate my medicine..
[cause I'm sick of myself]

Pregnant Lady

It's been literally forever(or to be exact-2 years) for to me get my own nephew/niece...like from my sister's generation(I was about to write womb-...haha)..so this year,God willing,..July 2012..my sister will provide me and my family a new family member...a child(hoping, a boy) that will lighten the symphony of this family...
I can tell you guys now that...that future child would be so fucking lucky
to have mama as grandmother.,
papa as grandfather.,
brother sani as father..,
my sister as mother(abuden!)
as best of all..(y'all know what Imma gonna write..)
me as him/her AUNT ANNE...*cookoo

I'll make the baby my evil apprentice..mwahahahahaha

we all will love him a.k.a. like 'menatang minyak yang penuh' for him..cause..is't been a while and where would the family throw our big bucks?-(think about that-how arrogant am I)

p/s : joke aside..the kid is a fortune..we vow to treasure it with all our heart..like all family would do!(it's baby..what do ya expect?)

Power of Wishful Thinking

I'm not here...just a silhouette...with Frankenstein being my partner and all...to start this freaking new journey watsoever to new destination watsoever....thinking "this may be not a good year to restart,but hey...just GAMBATTE ne?"

I never realised what I got until I lay my eyes to those lowlifes...thinking every stinking...they compiled more hardships than nigahiga's video viewers...I mean what the heck...

everyday...I got a soft mattress below...they got hard-rock concrete...

I got chill yet comfortable wind from the air-cond... and they...chill yet DEATHLY strong blowing?

let me get this straight...

what the first WORD that !pops! from your mind when you see these?

DYING - yeah,the kid's dying to see what the world would look like from heaven...what would happen to the body of his when the fucking bird finished feasting on it...yeah..what do "I" care eh?

FUNDAMENTAL - as in FUN and MENTAL combined...perhaps for me define as  the fun you only have in the mind whereas you live in dump street covered with rats and stuffs,seeking food when the guard dogs asleep
yeah...I got food on my table when I want it on my table!

 p/s ; why hypocrites like we'all cared anyhoo?it's just some stupid nation isn't it?
they had tough year all through 2011...and about to start another one in 2012...we're celebrating em'!?

Mr. and Ms Anonymous

I may not be one hell of a psychic but still,I sense that there's someone at some place that was meant for me to *****thinking,,,

yeah,to like,,,have a relationship...not in a serious type of way but,ok no one - cared -

just,my curious nature just dying to know who is/are the particular person/community that know me(?)

yeah,the thing is,I'd really wanted to know you guys better,the ones who keep track with this outrageously 

NERD/WIMP-&-BORING

blog...or even the ones who got the sympathy to even visit this freaking web...

I'm honoured of course...and it will be seriously delightful to know who,where ya from..etc etc

make long-cake shortcake,please,Please,PLEASE

P-L-E-A-S-E-!

leave some messages for me,about you...whoever!,don't care...

whenever you pop-up to this blog...you can say that now I'm kinda sheepishly lonely stuff..

but it's true,I need some major cool advice on how to spend my golden mine a.k.a. TIME (du'uh)

rather than rearing some fats in me...just...huh,just let me noe who you are...

p/s : LOVE YOU GUYS...(like you wouldn't know)