11 Miseries [Some Nights]

Before what ever..lemme just recall what I did..

I completed my MUET test..the ultimate condition they gave us: "factor for one to succeed in life" something like that...

And I got a point,which is - the need for being happy...

very true..I look at the paper,and think,..why havent' I thought about this before?

I just couldnt' agree more with the statement...

so right that moment..my ideas flow like Niagara Falls...all related with the facts that we DO need the feel of being happy in order to become a successful person..[how cliche is that?]

THIS COULDNT GET ANY MORE BORING

ehem..it is sure..that there had been some exposures going on around me..some stuffs that stamped my confidence as a not-so-active blogger..these 'exposure' involves stalking le me others friends blogs,,,how they manage it and I compared it,,..to..mine...??*speechless

bla blah blah

I had just gone through my longest fever-tortured days..all eleven days of them I've gone through with coldness of rain and scorching heat of the SUN...

these days full of...of...(kepala pening jap...takleh nak fikir jap)-->heading for medication

Not Suppose

And I smile..la la la... - Random Awesome (i dont noe what is up with me)

Maseh sendiri, 

Dalam runag serba luas ini, 

Tanpa belaian suara makhluk lain...

Hanya belaian suara jantung bergetar...

Dan nyanyian riang di luar sana

Semua kerna waktu,

Mahu mengisinya, mahu mengembalikanya, mahu diberhentikan

Apakan daya diriku manusia biasa,

Sebiasa-biasa aku, ada yang lagi luar biasa,

Puasa sebulannya dipanjangkan seumur hidup,

Buka dan sahurnya tidak pernah ada,

Rezeki ku di bumi Allah SWT melimpah ruah banyaknya,

Fikiran aku cuba sentiasa mengingat,

Bahawa hidup ini,jaraknya singkat,

Tak usah hiraukan,..tak usah pedulikan, 

Biarlah sendiri mana pun aku,

Yang di atas sana maseh menemani,

Sedihku ini tak ada erti, 

Jika kaulah sandaran hati...

Sejauh mana dunia mengeji,

Sejauh mana mereka bertepi,

Bertambah dekat jarakku dan Dia, 

Hatta, aku endahkan saja,

Sehingga aku mampu, sehingga aku sanggup,

Maka selamalah aku hidup,

Sudah aku katakan,

Berkali-kali disuarakan,

Diiring ahli mahupun teman,

Keranda mu diusung pelan,

Mencari nasib di akhir zaman,

Berhenti jari puas berdiri, 

Menulis takdir tak pernah henti,

Fadhilat hidup tak akan ku sangsi, 

Cerita diri berbunyi begini ;~

Letto - Sandaran Hati

     

Classic Mistakes

1st Ramadhan 1433 ~
...one date that I felt major sadness and I felt homey..(I miss it so much)...the pitiful of realization of what I've had become throughout life,..I see more clearly now that 'the silence of the lamb' is present...my water-thoughts flow more peacefully...calmly,I know now...really know well..

-- people changed..like E=mc2 (complicated) --

the sadness trap the heart with its firm grip..how I wonder why this is my beginning..that I know this is the best journey of all time...there's only some sad THINGS happen but the FEELING that comes after,..it came more powerful...not bad...not a bad sign at all..

~!@#$%^&*()_+...+_)(*&^%$#@!~

people feel sad..all the time..it is the most common essence that I hope I'm not the one of the commoners,..felt the normal feeling over n' over again...not cool..(c'mon!I'm a vintage freak!)...

about being able to see things clearly..what I mean by it is that,I knew the ways to avoid what's other people are doing wrong...those kind of plans help me get through existence more accordingly,..but the best of all,living personage more harmoniously...

_______      Masochist Vendetta borders`    _______

what do you want n' wadya need?..see?that's a question...every homo sapien heard that one before,..but how many cared?

what do humans lived for?...my mind says..it's not something I find it worth fighting for,...maybe just because of my jealousy and ego conquer the mind while I'm writing this..but most of all,..my still-rational part thought,..majority creatures are still blind,..with the brightness of earth's fake light...however..where do I stand..am not one of em'?maybe,..maybe not...

-- I'M FREAKING FREAK THAN MOST OF YA GUYS,GOT THAT?  --

so yeah~..now in Ramadhan...I can do stuffs,..in other words,..lots of stuffs could be done n'

SKY'S THE LIMIT

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p/s; sudah cukup sudah....cukup sampai d'sini saja...

another p/s; just found out that my Islamic birth date is the 1st of Rabbiulakhir 1415...on WEDNESDAY-!

Exposed

THESE ARE 'CRAZY'

-it suppose to be in Masochistic Vendetta blog..but seriously?who cares..[i'll duplicate]-

You,me won't know what is crazy...which is what perhaps until The Judgement day..people may not read this but I'll take this freaking post as my virtual note for future-me

I rarely do any of my post perfectly unless I have the feeling to so...warning this is one of those posts...

I can't beat my within curiosity especially when internet's available...a lot had happened inside my 'imaginary world' a.k.a. mind...lately..because of scenes

When I'm boring,I surf the net~simple...but

me surfing the net this time had led me to different dimension - believe it or not

I HAVE DOUBTS EVERY DAMN MINUTE

Who am I anyway?who the heck are you?..are we actually people that God Almighty gave minds and hearts to use wisely..~forget 'wisely',,to actually use it? 

it is so fucking hard to live on this planet earth...you had competition 

.p/s : Picnik.com dead..R.I.P.

Deputy Of Headache [HQ]

It' been awhile,I've never given much thought on others as in I'm honto ni (really!) selfish...

it is in my DNA,bla bla bla....though I sometime don't know why I'm being so emosional on some other things(?)

+++ CRAP-WRITING UNDER CONSTRUCTION +++

perhaps..perhaps..perhaps...I'm so freaking lonely that I felt that way...not with parent or my rarely-comes-home sister and my always-busy-with-entertainment-industry brother-in-law

Since school's over,I'm kind envy those children who went out to some freaking shops buying some freaking school stuff...

My love is only for Him...Allah Almighty...

Thanked Him for the whole of my miserable lives-i'm a cat,so 9 lives-

Ended-up Lefthanded

This is a true story..about a young lady whose name could not be written (me)...had lost her greatest treasure to her very obnoxious stupidity...no comparison...

MY MEMORIES OF TWO YEARS

living-as-high-schooler-in-the-laptop

GONE FOR GOOD

BLOWN WITH THE WIND

'f' that recovery system!...How the heck should I know that "recovery" means it suck all the stuff I've building up inside this laptop!(FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF)..words which shall not be written..well,it's improper...:-p

~d-o-n-e* w-i-t-h * i-t~

Open Up A New Leaf(ves)

Don't fret my dearest...

walawalaweyh...I'm gonna sing a song first...........

DONE!...dumdumdum,Just finished my ULTIMATE exam about 21 days ago...I'll be dead for another 2 days according to the death note...or so you could say that I've changed(?)...let's seeeeeee...I won't be going to school anymore for the rest of my life...BUTT if I were destined to become a TEACH..nope,that won't happen...dadadadadadadadada...
listening to Tree Hugger by Kimya Dawson

MUSIC IS MOTHER'S NATURE FAVOURITE DAUGHTER

(you know that don't you?)

KEEP IT COOL

miss that ;-p

qwertyuiop-woah,my english literature,mwahahahah,...I'm still not used for not going to school... It's been eleven years I lived and 'die' in that building so-called school...now I'm like free?or just under my grave... Literally..I am right now(du'uh)...I've been bored to death,tears,vommit,faint-every-sec

(!^!) I WANT MY SCHOOL BACK!!! (!^!)

that's odd

p/s ; buh-bye